Ok, so...

I love service, i love honor, and i love America

oh man, i cant believe i said that, anandi always reminds me, good girl that anandi is. it seems like so long ago.

well, today was a good day. like most, it was sad and a bit detached, but relative to my more recent days, this one was a good one. Kaila and i went to Chipotle for lunch and spent a good two hours talking there, followed by some music and time just sitting/lying on my bed for more talking. We see eye to eye on so many things and i feel that she, more than anyone else, can really relate to what i'm going through right now. We've both got it bad.

Half Life by Duncan Sheik, listen to it. (my ipod's on shuffle as i write this)

then came the NHS officer's meeting, that was so much more fun than i could have expected. i love it when people can bounce and build ideas back and forth, we're a good team, i'm really excited about NHS this year, i think we'll be able to accomplish more than previous groups.

On Love, In Sadness - Jason Mraz

school's creeping up, i'm not so sure what to think or expect. i'll just be going through the motions. when i look back to how i viewed school last summer, i just thought of it as "school", plain and simple, i was gonna go to school, do my clubs, have my fun, but so many unexpected things happened, and they were wonderful. I made so many new friends, my own style developed in my art, and i felt things i never imagined i would feel or feel this deeply. so now, after all that, and after all this, i dont know what to think.

I Want You Back, Backstreet Boys, good song.

One thing i'm very excited for is the audience i'll soon be having for all my singing. I miss the "oh yang"s, "please stop"s. we should all sing more, i would talk in melodies if i didnt know that everyone would stop talking to me.

I Hope You Die, Bloodhound Gang.

I was really upset for the first time, in a long time. I said things i didnt mean to say, i hate saying dirty things and being a pottymouth, it is entirely not like me. I feel like i'm betraying myself. it's not good.

Tell Him, Celine Dion & Barbra Streisand

I'm gonna take everything one day at a time, bearing in mind the general destination. i dont want it to just be a blur, i will appreciate each moment and get passed each obstacle. that means i'll deal with my feelings each day, recognizing that they're there, not ignoring them.

Why Worry, All-American Rejects

that is the song rachel and i sing whenever we're worried about a test or anything, though the lyrics are really talking about being lost without the girlfriend, it is fun to sing, and the title applies, if only mildly. I really do miss all the class-time singing.

Only Time, Enya

I havent heard this song in such a long time. I used to listen to it all the time, i loved it. I think i finally understand what it's talking about now. "who knows? only time." i wish time would come out with it already. Patience is not something i was given. I blame my mother.

Through With You, Maroon 5.

posted by yang @ 8:43 PM